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So my last post... kind of a bummer... But isnt it funny the way God works. We were recommended to two therapists for PT for Toby. One was recommended by two seperate individuals. We were also told that we would wait, plan on waiting, waiting a long time. Maybe not even plan on getting in ever. But isnt it funny that God knows things that we didnt even know or understand at the time. I called the first one. The one highly recommended. The one recommended by two different people. The receptionist let me know there was a 30 person waiting list for this therapist and I might as well look else where. Well, I asked to be number 31 and then asked for Selina (thats her name) to call me. After many many more calls. And wanting to bang my head up against a wall from all these touchy feeling, love yourself and dont ever push the child therapists I got a phone call. It was Selina. Funny I thought.. Courtesy call. That's nice. Then she shocked me. "I have permission from my boss to move y...

It was a sad day at therapy for us today. We walked in to start our regular Physical Therapy when our PT dropped the bomb on us. He's changing offices. Me: Oh? Well, we can follow you, right? Todd: You CAN, but the new office doesn't take medicaid. Me: Oh...then we cant. silence........ tears start welling up.... more tears start welling up.....and some more.... feeling like a total ninny. but cant seem to get the tears pooling up under control. Todd went on to explain that its not one of those happy moves. Its because there are problems going on at the office he is at right now. It almost made it worse to know that this move isnt just something that is better for him personally...It's because of well....most likely...stupid people. I somehow made it through the rest of therapy without boo hooing like a child. Luckily all of this went over Toby's head because he was too excited to see Todd and play. The water works did start big time after getting on the phone with Nate...

It has taken me some time to decide to blog this or not. There are just certain parts of our lives that dont belong on blogs dont really need to be opened up for everyone to see, read or feel. But there are those parts that are still good to share whether or not they be hard. Toby's birthday is in 6 days. Pretty big deal. It's the big 4!!! Now I'm sure you are thinking that the last statement doesnt seem to go along with the first paragraph, but for me it does. There is one problem with this birthday for me. 4 seems so much bigger than 3! This birthday is a big deal for me because I feel like the difference between Toby and other children will become more apparent. Yes, its only 6 days older than he is today, but now when someone asks I 'll have to say, "He's 4." And then you get the surprised look. The surprised look is always a bummer. So even though his birthday in and of itself is incredible. I can remember being in the hospital with him like it was y...

so what's happened since the big Galleria thing in Dallas, you ask? Well, if you are a facebook friend with me you've heard bits and pieces.. (if not ask to be my friend I can never figure out how to look anyone up on that thing) So here's what went down. After repeated messages from lots of friends from all of the country to the Galleria. One finally got a little more than a form letter back from someone, stating that they hadnt even heard from me. NOT TRUE!! I hadnt written to them and as I said before Nate had called them the very day it happened. Well, I wrote AGAIN. Explaining who I was. Within a week I had an email in my inbox from a very nice lady by the name of Leslie who is the Vice President for Simon Malls in Texas. She asked that I call her or that I send her my number. So of course I called. (during nap time so that I could hear everything HA!) She was an incredibly kind lady who was extemely and I believe sincerely apologietic. She heard me out and heard abo...

We are going through a somewhat scary time right now. It looks as though we will be losing Medicaid and SSI benefits for Toby in the very near future...say in a couple of days to a couple of weeks. This all started with Colleens post about Medicaid waivers. (I appreciate the post by the way) However, this started a chain reaction. Nate and I knew we were close to the income level cut off for SSI and were already over the income level for reguarly medicaid. We knew that when Nate published his first book that it would be putting us even closer. However, with his second book coming out in the next month I knew that it was mostly likely going to put us totally over the income level. (and yes I said SECOND book, how neat is that?) So after reading Colleen's post decided I should start to do a little research and come up with a plan. Now granted when I started making my phone calls I thought this was for FUTURE reference, not right now!! So I started with my list of contacts and my not...

I'm sorry I keep doing links, but once I write it once I really dont even have the time to copy and paste...Nap time is fixing to end. Please take the time to read this, please forward this to people you know. Id really like people to be aware that things like this still happen so they can be prepared to help someone if they ever see something like this. We should all be prepared to take action when needed. So click here for the story of what happened to us this monday. but you might want to take a blood pressure pill beforehand

I wanted to share this post from the other blog i work on that I wrote. I think its important for people to realize that sadness doesnt just end but that it is not continuous either. and that sadness is just sadness and it's okay. so click here to read. thanks for all you who take the time to read about us. Also, Toby just got casted for his new braces and we should be getting them this week or next. I'm sure Ill be putting pictures up soon