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a week from today

A week from today. A week from today we should know something. SOMETHING!!  at least more than what we know now. A week from today Wren has her eye appointment with her ophthalmologist. A week from today I'm hoping to stop constantly wondering. A week from today I am hoping to stop doing my own "what can she see" tests. A week from today we might rejoice and high five. or A week from today we might mourn . Its scary how a day can have the potential to change your life and the life of your children. (I say children because it affects all of them.) We've been here before. We've sat waiting for an appointment. For news. For something. For more than we know now. And we've mourned. This time is different though because we are holding Wren. When we found out about Tobys Spina Bifida he was only in my tummy for 20 weeks. We still had 20 weeks to adjust, to mourn and to let life stop a little. I wish life could just stop right now. I wish I ha

Desperation

We are a desperate bunch. Us Christian Moms. We try so hard to do it all and be it all. At least I am. Join me in the description or not but good grief I know there are times when I reach the point of pure desperation. Most of the time I'm desperate for fixes or something that will make me feel not so alone in my struggle.  How to fix this? How to help this kid do? How to help be a better wife? How can I be a better mother? How can I stop yelling? How can I be more grace filled? How can I home school better? How can I point my kids to the true meaning of Christmas? How can I be a fun mom? How can I ____________________ fill in your blank. I sit in there in pure desperation and I read and I read. I find blogs, articles, videos and anything I can get my hands on and I read it. How to pray for your husband. How to not yell. How to be a hand-free non cell phone loving mama . (being read on my cell phone and loving it) How to have strength through hard times. How to have