Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Tomorrow is well...tomorrow.

So today I found out that tomorrow is clinic day for Toby. About every 6 months we end up having a long day of appointments...tests, doctors, x rays and ct scans. The thing about these appointments is that the night before can easily put me into a panic.

I never know what tomorrow is going to hold. I don't know if tomorrow will be uneventful. If They will check everything and we will leave on the same road that we came on. Or if tomorrow will change the next days, weeks, months or even years. Walking into these appointments I always have in the back of my mind that they could find something on the CT Scan or see something else wrong. I never know when a new surgery will be scheduled or a new type of therapy will be added. The whole process of these days is overwhelming for me. I don't know if this will be the year that they have to sedate Toby for the tests, or if there will be a cute nurse that he will flirt shamelessly with. I guess that's the scary part. I just don't know anything going into them. Since they are so far apart there doesn't seem to be a general norm that I can get used to or that Toby can get used to. Don't get me wrong; I don't want them any closer together!!

Tonight I decide to tell Toby about going to the hospital in the morning. I thought that he was old enough to not be shocked tomorrow when he woke up and found himself on the way to see doctors and getting put into a CT machine. Maybe a bad decision on my part. He started crying and started saying that he wasn't sick. It's hard to explain to a three year old that they aren't sick but still need to see a doctor. Daddy of course was Daddy and distracted the destruction that Mommy created by promising to play a video game when he got home.

So for now, tomorrow is well...tomorrow...

I hope that tomorrow will be just a normal day of checking up or even a day of finding out good news. But there is always the chance that we will leave with a new mountain to climb over with Toby.

Please pray for Toby. Pray that he won't be scared. Pray that nothing will hurt.

Please pray for me. Pray that God will give me wisdom as I help Toby and try to teach him how to be brave but to rely on God for his strength.

Please pray for Milo. Pray that he will be good and patient through tomorrow.

Please pray for Gracie. Pray for Gracie's understanding through these appointments, pray for her patience, and pray for her to be the strong big sister.


Anonymous said...

Please Please call me tomorrow if you want me to pick up Gracie! We would be more than happy to have her tomorrow!

Summers Family said...

Good luck tomorrow. We will be praying for each of you.

I've enjoyed reading your blog and sharing your joys and sorrows. Wishing you peace and strength tomorrow.

God Bless,

Mom to Jack (4), Benjamin (2) and Annabelle: 7-29-08 Spina Bifida and Hydrocephalus

Anonymous said...

I will be praying for you and for Toby!! Thank you for letting us know how to pray.

Your sister in Christ,
~Heather (Fordham) Huron =)

Schuylar 'Sky' Crist said...

Heaven's Very Special Child

A meeting was held quite far from Earth!
It's time again for another birth.
Said the Angels to the LORD above,
This Special Child will need much love.

His progress may be very slow,
Accomplishments he may not show.
And he'll require extra care
From the folks he meets down there.

He may not run or laugh or play,
His thoughts may seem quite far away,
In many ways he won't adapt,
And he'll be known as handicapped.

So let's be careful where he's sent,
We want his life to be content.
Please LORD, find the parents who
Will do a special job for you.

They will not realize right away
The leading role they're asked to play,
But with this child sent from above
Comes stronger faith and richer love.

And soon they'll know the privilege given
In caring for their gift from Heaven.
Their precious charge, so meek and mild,

by Edna Massionilla
December 1981